Monday, October 10, 2011

I've Forgotten Who I Am

Misty Miller -- Remember 


{Dress: Urban Outfitters -- Shoes: Keds -- Jacket: Forever 21 -- Necklace: Modcloth}







Hello darlings
I've realized lately that my outfits have been all over the place. From really girly and cute to grungy and dark, and there is sort of a reason for it. The truth being I am stuck in the middle between who I am currently and who I want to be, or rather how I want to be perceived. If I could describe myself as I am now I would say girly, cute, young, innocent, vintage. But what I want to be is a little bit tougher, a girl who is viewed as independent and a little bit sexy, but combined with vintage and girly, not innocent. Of course I batter back and forth between these ideas on a daily basis, which is why my outfits are hectic. I am so sick lately of being seen as just the innocent girl, mainly because this is how it has been my whole life. I feel my sweet looks lack maturity and it drives me crazy. Just this weekend alone I changed my outfit god knows how many times. I wish I fully understood who I am and honestly I am scared I will never know. 

I suppose my kitty understands all my stress and frustration because she just curled up in a ball on my chest. :) Oh animals, how they make life so much brighter. I don't mean to rant here, I just need to get it out somehow. Letting someone know how I truly feel is so lifting. Hopefully I can figure things out before I literally do become batty! 


19 comments:

Keeping up with E.S.E.M said...

adorable outfit! love love love! m,y friend has a jacket like that, its so cool!

x

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chelsea.jade said...

Lovely dress and I want a nail varnish that colour!

Also I wanted to say sorry about the shorts giveaway only being a UK one... I make the shorts myself so I've already spent the money buying the vintage jeans and customising them. Hopefully when I have more money I will be able to afford the shorts as well as international shipping! :)

Chelsea x

colour the white spaces said...

I complete understand how you feel :) And I am certain that there is a way to incorporate all aspects of who you are into your style. :) Just play around and have fun. :)

Viv said...

these are super sweet photos, love the floral dress and that jacket paired with it. your eyes are super blue and beautiful in these photos!




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Krissy ~ said...

such a cute dress!
Krissy xoxo

charity @ c'est la belle vie said...

I'm the same way! I think it's okay to go back and forth between styles though--we're young and always in transition, you know? Experimenting in style is fun, anyway :)

Jaya said...

I completely understand how you feel! All my life, the words used to describe me the most are cute, pretty, adorable.. and other words in that category. Not that I don't like being called that way, of course it flatters me, but I'm almost 20 (2 DECADES of life), and it bothers me to be perceived as a "little girl" sometimes.. and my lack of height and asian baby face don't really help. I think that's mainly why I have a pretty hectic style too.. well, at least to me. It especially bothers me when I see girls my age who appears way older than me. But at the end of the day, i guess it's just who i am. I can't possibly start dressing sexily...i still love wearing what I feel like wearing, whether i feel more girly, vintagy, or cool. And there will always be people who will love you for just the way you are :) Don't be afraid of not understanding who you are, just experiment with what you like and how you feel. How others view you is not nearly as important as how you feel about yourself :)

ok, well, i could actually go on for way more.. but I'm not writing a novel here ;) love the outfit!

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Shauna said...

You look so cute in this! You should try one long braid. you might not like it but it would look really cute on you.

mugs said...

Poor Bonnie! :( Love your jacket im taking it from your closet!

Mackenzie said...

I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I've been feeling the same way lately. Even if I look back at my last few outfits they are all over the place. It isn't really a bad thing because I don't think we need to restrict ourselves to a certain style, but it is a little frustrating sometimes too. We don't want to be defined by our style, and we want it to represent ourselves and how we feel. It's hard to find a balance since everyone is constantly changing!
I think this outfit is actually a pretty good representation of that even. You have the floral girly dress mixed with the edgier military style jacket. It's a fun play on the two styles!

morganvsmorgan said...

I understand where you're coming from. I often feel like I'm not just getting stuck in a rutt, but being pushed into one by people's perceptions of me. And the more people box you in as something, and expect you to behave in that way, and dress in that way, and encourage you to, the less comfortable you feel dressing how you want. But in the end, you just end up undermining your own confidence.

Gather up a million pictures of girls whose dressing inspires you, and go for it!!

以柔 said...

You are so beautiful :)
I am in love with your outfit, especially your shoes.
Don't worry, take your time to find out who really are. I am doing that too.
xxxx

Daryl said...

I think this look is great. I love the combination of the military jacket with the softer, floral print.

Experimenting with one's style is fun! But there are so many aspects of you that make you who you are, and your personal style is only one of them!

You're BEAUTIFUl

<3 Daryl
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Snommis said...

I can understand completely. It's hard when people judge how mature you are or how much you know on how you look. I've had it happen way too many times. Don't worry! The best part is nobody knows you unless they are really close and they understand how you think and what you're all about. It's fun to keep people guessing. Anyways, I think all your outfits are adorable and they all fit your style. You're not required to keep yourself in a little box where you have to dress one way! Hope you have a lovely day.
Amanda

effortlesscool said...

superrr cute look <3

XO Sahra
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This Charming Style said...

I understand what you are going through Kaylee... but it's ok to sometimes feel one thing and then feel another thing a different day... and that's the beauty of fashion! You can express yourself accordingly. Sometimes I dress grungey and sexy, sometimes I dress girly... and that's fine! Or, you can incorporate innocent and grungey into one look, which I have seen you do so well. It's ok to feel like both of those people :)

You look super gorgeous, I love the dress! I can't believe how naturally beautiful you are, it's is amazing! xx

Vale ♥ said...

You're simply beautiful, girl, I think you can be whoever you want to :-) Many kisses and I like your outfit so much, it's perfect !
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Jamie Rose said...

I think you look adorable and cool all the time. I don't think you have to choose just one style. You can change it up depending on your mood! That's what's so nice about clothes - they're not permanent. You may feel girly and cute one day and sexy and tough the next.

Jamie said...

I miss you wearing your Keds!! You used to break them out all the time, but not too much anymore ;-( Would love to see you bust 'em out again!! Especially the blue ones!! You are so cute and I just love you in your Keds tennies ;-)